Finding the 'purpose' of this upcoming journey is certainly where I am at right now, but I realized that if I don't start the trip soon, I could remain stuck here in Florida (no offense to this fine state!) forever, debating back and forth where I am headed, 'Forgeting to go' as Erin put it.

I know that I need to get back to India, and I honestly feel that my answer is waiting for me there.

One thing I didn't mention earlier is that I was just offered another position on the cruise ships, one that is much more lucrative than my previous one. After much internal deliberation, I turned it down, confident that this upcoming trip is more than just a 'vacation' or 'aimless wander'. However, that decision has drastically increased the pressure, which is why I believe that if I don't get started soon, I just might implode.

Once I arrive in India I will have taken that first step, which will immediately eliminate many of the questions and doubts that I experience now. I know that once I actually cross the threshold, my mind will relax and my confidence will increase, allowing me to view my journey in a much clearer perspective.

Does that sound reasonable?

Again I thank you all for your continued input, it is honestly very much appreciated!!

What sounds reasonable to me is your confidence! I am so excited for you! I think sometimes our purpose is clear, sometimes it is vague and we have to find it, and sometimes we simply have to pick the next step. The truth is, it is impossible to know where you'll end up if you dont take the first step in one direction. What seems clear is that you understand now that India is where you need to be. The amazing and exciting thing is...who knows where that will lead?! Your "I think...." has turned into an "I know..." and that is what is wonderful and makes the most sense. I cant wait to see where your trip leads you!

Thank you Erin...I am off on Saturday...finally booked the ticket to Delhi!

I'm just starting my blog - All the Roadrunning - hope you'll follow the adventure and drop in with some advice every now and then!